Hey. It's been awhile. Well it's really been a while since I last visit and write something about how's my life going. Many things had happened. Aside from now that it's already 2018, I had a lot of cherished moments last year and it was such a great experience.
Thankful and contented is the commonly used word that I use last year because it was really my year. I believe it and I claim it! God knows how thankful I am. I dedicate it to him :)
Anyhow, so yeah. Everything's doing great and I'm happy about it. However, I can't help myself and feel sad at times because of my current situation. I am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and that's fine. That's totally fine with me. I had no issue about that. It's just that I can't help myself but get lonely.
I had never loved a man the way I love Abel and I never felt loved in my life the way he showed his love for me. It was the best for me. He is the best. But we can't be together for too long. He has to go overseas for his line of job. I knew it from the very first and it is fine. Still, I have this feeling that I wish he stayed longer. I wish we enjoyed each other's company. I wish...
I don't anyone or anything. I already have a great life. I am thankful and happy but the distance is making me crazy and it is really fucking sad.
Everyday I miss him. It's only been a month but I miss him badly. I might be exaggerating things but I do miss hi :( Not a day has passed that I don't think of him. I reminisce of us whenever were together, our happy moments, our fights... It got me thinking as well on how was he? is he doing well? is he ok? Things like that.
Want to know what's crazier about this? It is not all the time we talk to each other. Like now, we are almost 2 weeks without communication and I think this is going to last long.
I did my very best to distract myself. As in everything. I read a book, I jogged everyday, I spend time with officemates and besties Jinkee and Janaa (They're super great). And anything and everything.
It was overall a sappy experience and I'm ok with it :)
I just wish that all of this waiting will be worth it. please be worth it.
Thankful and contented is the commonly used word that I use last year because it was really my year. I believe it and I claim it! God knows how thankful I am. I dedicate it to him :)
Anyhow, so yeah. Everything's doing great and I'm happy about it. However, I can't help myself and feel sad at times because of my current situation. I am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and that's fine. That's totally fine with me. I had no issue about that. It's just that I can't help myself but get lonely.
I had never loved a man the way I love Abel and I never felt loved in my life the way he showed his love for me. It was the best for me. He is the best. But we can't be together for too long. He has to go overseas for his line of job. I knew it from the very first and it is fine. Still, I have this feeling that I wish he stayed longer. I wish we enjoyed each other's company. I wish...
I don't anyone or anything. I already have a great life. I am thankful and happy but the distance is making me crazy and it is really fucking sad.
Everyday I miss him. It's only been a month but I miss him badly. I might be exaggerating things but I do miss hi :( Not a day has passed that I don't think of him. I reminisce of us whenever were together, our happy moments, our fights... It got me thinking as well on how was he? is he doing well? is he ok? Things like that.
Want to know what's crazier about this? It is not all the time we talk to each other. Like now, we are almost 2 weeks without communication and I think this is going to last long.
I did my very best to distract myself. As in everything. I read a book, I jogged everyday, I spend time with officemates and besties Jinkee and Janaa (They're super great). And anything and everything.
It was overall a sappy experience and I'm ok with it :)
I just wish that all of this waiting will be worth it. please be worth it.
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