It just don't show on my face but I'm so glad that 2013 is now over. yeahhhh. I have so much grudge with 2013, and now that it's finally over, it feels like the pain and everything is also over. and now, i think i'm pretty much ready of moving forward. I have to mean this, moving forward thingy, and I have to left this grudge, sadness, pain and everything as 2013 goes away.
Why do I hate so much 2013? It's because it's my worst year ever. Seriously. I lived in pain and hardship this year. My life changed this year. And since then, I'm not fucking normal. I'm not the way I used to be. I don't know if it's the hormones or the perks of maturity, but yes I've changed and I don't like it. So what happened? Why is that so? Let's have fast flashback:
January 2013:
I thought t'was a good year. (Though, chinese horoscopes are pretty much clear that it wasn't for my horoscope or whatever) It was a good month though. i'm inlove, very much inlove. yet getting crazy with all the love stuff that I was never used to.
February 2013:
I just had a boyfriend. I'm so inlove and so worried. And so happy/
March 2013:
I'm having problems with my lovelife and my ojt. I don't think i have to emphasize that. And i'm worried that time that one reason for me and my bf's breakup was my ojt (and i'm never wrong)
April:
Only the best month in 2013. Srsly. Yet, i got into a really big shit. i got serious problems with my bf. yet he make up, so it turn ok. and then life goes on. Hey I got laid. Joke. (JUST JOKING)
May 2013:
THE WORST MONTH. PAIN. DISAPPOINMENT.BROKEN. We broke up, probably because of ojt. probably because i don't agreed on something, or probably she found someone else.
JUNE 2013:
I just never been the same since then. :( (actually, until now) Classes are back. last year. I have to face my fucking thesis.
JULY 2013:
Fuck it. I'm moving on.
AUGUST 2013:
This year hates me. I'm having problem with my thesis and I'm having frequent flashbacks.
SEPTEMBER 2013:
It keeps getting worst.
OCTOBER 2013:
Thought i was not gonna passed topic defense. Well, actually almost. I just met (not actually met) a new friend. Best thing that happened this month, besides passing topic proposal.
NOVEMBER 2013:
Things are getting worst. My thesis fucked my life. Glad I have someone I could talked to to ease every pain. Flashbacks everywhere.
DECEMBER 2013:
Moved on. Yet there are flashbacks. Worrying all month because of my thesis. Has a possibility that I won't graduate. Pictures of him and her gr all over my fb newsfeed. There's a kick in my heart idk why. 2013 really wants me to suffer, that's why it poured some of his power in this month. Ruined my last day of the year. it fucking loves to see me hurting.
JANURAY 1, 2014:
I'm fucking moving forward. and I'm leaving this shit. GOODBYE 2013.
HELLO 2014. Please be good to me.
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